Her I go.....

Okay, I have never had a BLOG before. This is my first blogging attempt ever! I have friends and family that I've visited their blogs and can see what is going on in their lives and pictures and have always said...I'll do that one day. So, I guess today is that day.

God's really been working on ME and in my life. Lately, I have been lookin for answers and have done everything in my power to get these answers. Living and going through divorces, deaths, dissapointments, depression, anxiety, so many struggles that really about brought me to my breaking point mentally and emtionionally. I sarted looking in every way I knew how to try and understand why I was here and would I ever be happy in my life. I've looked for these answers in self help books, counseling, alcohol, antidepressants, shopping, exercise, food, lack of food, friends... Anything...I just wanted to be happy. Although I've ALWAYS beleived in God, I never really thought about turning to him for the answers. I mean I thought about it in terms of praying.."God, please keep me from going crazy and give me paitence and make my kids behave and make my husband uderstand me." But, to really give my problems and questions to God took me longer to do.

I started with reading some inspirational words from Joel Olsteens Live Your Best Life Now (there I go with the self help again!ha) to picking up the Bible. With lots of soul searching and a little Marriage counseling retreat my husband and I went on one weekend in August. I learned a lot about myself that weekend. I realized I needed to get real with myself and with God. I needed to find these answers and my kids, family and friends needed me to as well. The whole family needed to get back into church. Because of issues at my church, another dissapointment I didn't understand, of 15yrs I was lost and didn't know where to start. Thanks to a dear friend of ours inviting us to his church, My husband, the kids and I started going to this WONDERFUL CHRUCH. We became active in the church's small groups.(Wonderful experience) My daughter started going to youth group and church. (Oh this is where I started to realize what this life is all about!) I could go on and on with how this has affected my life! I know...this is just my first blog...and I am getting carried away.

Let me just say, Last Sunday I was on the Lords stage in church singing in the PRAISE BAND. Now if that isn't God leading me down a new Path - I dont' know what is!! Wow, what these passed 6 months have done for me. What this Church and God has done for me and my family is amazing. All this time the "answers" were right there all along.

Of course I do not have all my answers and never will. I know that only the Lord knows all. We are not ment to here on earth. I just know that I'm not alone anymore and that I have what I was looking for this whole time! Thats why I am here! I'm excited about my new journey and what else God has in store for me and my family. I still have a lot of work to do but, I am on the right path-I just know it.