I took this picture and thought to myself GOD IS GOOD

WE HAD OUR SECOND MEETING OF THE WELL.
It was a great night and we talked about God's love. A lot of people don't realize that no matter what you do in life or how much you mess up God loves us unconditionally! Its never to late to turn to Him and lay all your "Stuff" at his feet.
I ran across this new verson of the "Footprints" story and I prayed that everyone I know and love can take this walk with God. I read it and got the best feeling. I am passed the zigzags of walking alone!



JUST READ IT!

FOOTPRINTS...A New Version

Imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking down the road together. For much of the way, the Lord's footprints go along steadily, consistently, rarely varying the pace.


But your footprints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops, turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns.
For much of the way, it seems to go like this, but gradually your footprints come more in line with the Lord's, soon paralleling, His consistently.

You and Jesus are walking as true friends!

This seems perfect, but then an interes ting thing happens: Your footprints that once etched the sand next to Jesus' are now walking precisely in His steps.
Inside His larger footprints are your smaller ones, you and Jesus are becoming one.

This goes on for many miles, but gradually you notice another change. The footprints inside the large footprints seem to grow larger.

Eventually they disappear altogether. There is only one set of footprints. They have become one.

This g oes on for a long time, but suddenly the second set of footprints is back. This time it seems even worse! Zigzags all over the place. Stops. Starts. Gashes in the sand. A variable mess of prints.

You are amazed and shocked.
Your dream ends. Now you pray:
"Lord, I understand the first scene, with zigzags and fits. I was a new Christian; I was just learning. But You walked on through the storm and helped me learn to walk with You."

"That is correct."
"And when the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually learning to walk in Your steps, following You very closely."

"Very good.. You have understood everything so far."
When the smaller footprints grew and filled in Yours, I suppose that I was becoming like You in every way."

"Precisely."
"So, Lord, was there a regression or something? The footprints separated, and this time it was worse than at first."

There is a pause as the Lord answers, with a smile in His voice.
"You didn't know? It was then that we danced!"

Supporting my friends

As you can tell I am such a supportive friend! My Best's Friend Kimy, whom I work with, shop with, hang out with, spend family gatherings with, cry with, laugh A LOT with, share secrets with and well, would give my right arm for. She'd have to give her left arm (She's left handed)and she would!
We think so much a like that we finish each other sentence. Our family history is so simular and well, we just scare ourselves on how much we have in common.

She and I act as if we are 12 yrs old and actually have been friends since we were 10 and 11. She is 1 yr older than me - had to put that in - but we have been through about the same things in life. Two failed marriages. Our first husbands we married out of high school and became mothers very early. (Both our 1st EX's names where Greg). Husband number 2 were alcholoics that were wrecker driver and business owner. (These were our bought with alcohol days) These were our try and fix them relationships, But, eventually knew we had to get ourselves and children out of such a toxic relationship. And get away from all the drinking.

I've been there and seen her two boys grow from babies to fine young men, I consider them my own kids. She's been there for the three of my kids. Thats their AUnt Kimy! We have just ALWAYS been there for each other in all phases of our lives. We can completely be OURSELVES 100% when we are together. (some times completely humiliating our children) We know things about each other our own mothers or husbands don't know. And our husbands just shake their head at us and know if we had to choose between the two - they'd be gone!ha So, they love that we love each other so much. (I think they really like the fact we bitch to each other about stuff instead of them!)

Okay so why the heck am I in her pants??? And whats the point here??? Well,when my friend Kimy lost some weight she was wearing these Gosh awful pants that were big enough for two people. So, I tell her to get rid of those pants, we are very honest with each other, they look like I can fit in there with her. She says "Get on in here then" SO I DO! Not to mention this is at our little sorority meeting where we are suppose to be fine young ladies of the community.....

Oh well, life is to short to not laugh and we do plenty of that (So, do the people around us) when we are together. Unless they don't know us and they just think we are crazy.

But, I really think one day she is going to be a minister to someone besides me. We talk about God a lot and how He put us in each others lives. I really truly believe He gave her to me. Now, I am working on her sharing her wonderful abilities to Minister to others. She has sooooo much to give others that I am willing to share her-nice of me huh?

With that being said, Our first meeting of "The Well" went really, really good. I see a place for her or anyone that needs friends like this in this group. I've not even asked Kim to come to a meeting. I'm still trying to even get her to come to Church. hint...hint... no, She is a very Spiritual woman that doesn't need my ways of worshipping to know she is defiantly a child of God. But, sense I share everything else in my life, I would love to share this with you too, Kimy?????

I just never thought that sense i had Kimy and Shannon (My other friends that I will blog about next)in my life, I didn't need any other friends. Boy was I wrong I have room for others....See I got to know these people in this Group "The Well" I realized their are different kinds of friendhsip and you learn and grow from all of them. I am truly blessed to have these people in my life. I've never felt so loved and have so much love for a wonderful group of people. If someone you know needs this kind of love, please let them know about this group that meets on Monday nights at 5:30. I already have one wonderful friend that I love dearly coming and would we have room for others.
You can always e-mail me at stephanieleighmarshall@yahoo.com if ever you want more info.

To all my friends - have a wonderful and blessed day!

Kimy, Don't kill me for blogging this, I love you!

One more thing to share

These are some of the people that are involved in "The Well". The picture that I am in, the red head, SPring has put her hard work, her heart, sweat and soul into this. I am so proud to call her my friend.
The lady holding the baby (her grandbaby) is my Mother Mentor, Kathy, I talk about and she has been such a blessing in my life! Can't say enough about her.
The guy in the middle of the group picture and the pretty lady in the red shirt with dark hair and glasses is my worship minister and his wife, Mark and Lisa. Lisa is Rylie's pre-school teacher as well. They are just wonderul people that I've been blessed with too.

I had one of my family members ask me, are you really okay? It being a very reasonable question-since two weekends ago I hit a hard depression for a couple of days. Then they read my blog and it sounds as if I have a perfect happy life.

I want any of you who read my blogs to know I AM HUMAN! I still have my battles and the devil works on me harder than ever. A lot of us that are leading this ministy have had some self doubt and feel like we are not adiquit to take on such a responsibilty. I mean we are messing with FRAGIL peoples lives here - we take this very seriously! But, after praying a lot about my "Breakdown" weekend Last Monday was my turn to give my testimony to the group on my past. After I did and I felt the love and understanding from the others and know they too still struggle, I KNEW this is going to be just as good for me as for others.
The main reason being - I have God to lean on now. As before I felt alone, scared, mad and hatetrid. Now when I go through my "Stuff" which I could be the Pope and still have "Stuff" its just so much better having God in my life and by my side. Thats all we want to do is share this with others. He CAN fix everything. But he won't! Thats just not how he works. He wants us to learn and grow.
Life will never be PERFECT for anyone. But, man God has made it so much easier.
The week I was refering to, I got to spend the weekend with my sister and neice. My Mentor Mother did every stitch of my laundry. My husband relaxed and lighten my load every way he could. My folks came to church to hear me sing. My kids gave me lovins and my life filled with joy once again. All I had to do was pray and spend some intimate time with God. Then I realised - God gives us these test so that we know that we have to get on our face before him. I did and probably wouldn't have in that way if my life was hunkie doory everyday.

Its been a while

If this video comes through - I hope it touches you like I've been touched!

I've realized that its been a while since I have blogged. This IS always therapeutic for ME. So, I should do it more often.

Lots of new things happening in mine and my family's life

Payton got Homecoming Maid and she is getting baptized Sunday SO BIG WEEKEND.

I will spend all day Sat. getting ready for the FBC Kaleo Fair where our praise team and choir will be singing. Its the 20th of Oct. and there will be a fun fest before we sing. Games, kiddy rides, prizes and holesom family fun. The "outdoors concert" willbe at 6:00. (Please come..hint hint)

My husband is looking forward fo basket ball season to get started.

I am getting ready and already envolved in a new Ministry. Its called "The Well" Recovery ministy. So far this group has allowed me to open up to others the struggles in my life. A group of us at Church are sharing our testimonies because the after the Kaleo fair on the 22nd of October we will be holding weekly meeting and Minister to people that are dealing with strong holds in there lives. We all have them - but others are really faced with some "stuff" From sexual abuse to drugs and alcohol to depression and eating disorders. We aren't certified counselors we are just people that have been in one of these awful cercomstances and has let God heal our hearts like he can do for others.
We just want to share what finding God can do with those struggles and to bring anyone out of these empty places. To let them know they are not alone. Its going to be a learning experience for me. Its also going to open up some old "stuff" that I've put to rest in my life. This scares me - but, in a good way. I want people to know I am human and I have sinned and God still loves me. We all need to know that. We all need to know that life can be so much easier with Him in it. I controlled MY life myself for many years. It didn't get me that far. I had hate, anger, depression, self destruction to show for trying to do things MY way. A year and a half ago I gave my life over to God and let me tell you.....I am at peace now. I NEVER thought I would be happy AND I AM! If only I could have put God in my life a lot sooner. But, I had to go through what I have gone through to get that. I know that, I know now that my spirituality and faith is sooooo much stronger today because I did endure some "stuff" in my life.(This blog is titled "Stephs Stuff") So, now I want to share with others what He can do for them.

I have made some wonderful friends through this ministry. Friends that I love so much and that would do ANYTHING for me and vice versa. I've learned that sowing seeds in other people lives is bring Harvest into mine. It just so awesome to see what God is doing in my life and to see what else he has in store for me and my family.

So, I am going to blog more - at least once or twice a month about this new ministry. Of course anything said in these meetings are strictly confidental - so you will never hear names and details but, to hear stories of what God is doing through us to others is going to be some good reading. So, if the whole 2 of you that read my blog wants to start sharing my blogs with others or if my blogging helps ONE person, I think its is worth my commitment to blog more and share the life I have been so graciously given!

I know there is curves in the road too. And I know God is with me now so, I won't ever be alone in what I am dealing with. Thats pretty dang cool.


I love you all!

Schools about to start!

Well here is a picture of 2 of my Bestest friends. We've known each other since 5th grade. I need to get a picture of my Best friend Kim on here too! Oh the times us girls have had together. We've been through it all. Depression, Addictions, marriages, divorces, babies being born, loosing a baby, raising kids. Changing underwear, husbands, jobs and our minds.
But, through thick and thin we are always there for each other. I couldn't imagine my life with out friends. Thats what I hope everyone can experience in their lives is one true friend. They are hard to find and impossible to replace.

So, my Payton is going to be a sophomore. My Zack is going into the 5th grade (same grade I was in when I moved here and met my life long friends) and Rylie will be going to Mother's Day Out at FBC. I am a little worried about the FBC thing. Not the program - NO that is why I am doing everything in my power to get him in. I WANT him to go no where else but there. I feel like this is something that will be wonderful for him. I just worry about the hours. They don't go with my hours here at work and two days a week he will not even go. They are only open from 8:30 to 2:30 Mond., Tues, and wed., Also, I just found out they don't provide lunch we do??? Hmmmm.
But, I am putting it in God's hand. You think I'm kidding - I still haven't got it worked out yet and school starts next week and Rylie's the week after. I just think it will snap the day I take him and work into this plan that God has made for this child to get to go and learn about Him!

Ryan (Coach Marshall) has started work at Clarksville now and he has been working from 8 to 8. Inservice all day. Volley ball pract. then Basket ball pract. after school. SO, Here we go!!!!! Zacks first football game is Sat. and kids start school next week. WOW!!!

I've been so busy. I'm trying to learn 4 songs before Sept. 5th. I sing at the Fair princess Beauty pageant for entertainment. Our Choir at church will be singing every sund. but one. during the month. I'm still singing (loving it) on the praise team. Small groups at church will start during the week, along with youth group and awanas. Ballgames, work, taking care of my home, kids and husband. Can anyone say CALGONE TAKE ME AWAY! HA

No, I love my life and thank God everyday for what I have! Thats why I type to this little screen all my STUFF. It does help to process things that are going on.

And my cousin Watchy is having her baby Friday-COngrats to her!

Processing

Since I've gotten back from my trip to IWI I have been doing a lot of thinking and processing. I've been quite and subdued lately. My husband wants to know whats wrong with me??? Nothing,he or anyone has done to me. I just went through a experience at IWI that I can't explain to others and its made me do some soulful thinking. To be honest I can't pin point my thoughts, I spent a whole week with such positive people that has this expiring love for life and the Lord. We literally praised God all week long. We sang to music that spoke to me in a profound way. The fellowship was wonderful. I come home to "The real world" as my mom has pointed out and I think why does the Real World have to be so negative and depressing? It really just sucks the life out of you. People that just don't get it. I used to be one of those people. Where everything was about ME and what can this world do for me. How can I be Rich, Famous, Gorgeous, PERFECT. Why can't I be happy?? To find out its not about ME. Thats why I wasn't happy. The sooner people figure that out the better this life will be for us.
So much depression going on, people getting divorces, people just living life day to day, going through the motions and not knowing what for. Getting up the next day to do it all over again. I rememeber saying that I am on Auto pilot because I get up and go to work, come home, laundry, cook, take care of kids and husband go to bed and start over again the next day. It doesn't have to be that way!

A couple of good friends of mine are starting a "Healing" ministry for people that are recovering from something that has a strong hold on them. Whether it be alcohol, drugs, eating disorders, gambling, sex...what ever. I have been trying to figure out what my role in this or if at all I have one. I went to a meeting at church last night and listened to what a great thing this will be for our community. Its for anyone that needs a healing hand in life. I know I've struggles with depression and feeling worthless and not knowing why on earth I am here. So, I feel like my calling to this ministry would be for the lost souls due to depression and life struggles that get you down. I said before I feel God is talking to me about some sort of ministry and maybe this is it???
So, I guess the reason why I have been so quite and reflecting is because I am trying to listen to what God is trying to tell me. I am listening!
I love my family and I love my life-I am in love with the Lord and I am fine, I am just processing things and trying to hear what I need to hear-that's all!

What is our Purpose here?

Well, I am back from a week with my worship team at the International Worship Institute in Grapevine, TX. Let me tell you I have never experienced anything like I did this week. The first picture is of our "Girlfriend Group" from left to right, Laura Murray, Ashley Morgan, me, Lisa Eddington, Kathy Hickey (Our mentor) and Spring Minette. The other picture is of all who went which include our Worship Minister, Mark, Joel Chan and Tonya Peaden. (The pict. is blurry-it was taken with Mark's new IPhone)
The key word here is purpose. God has a purpose. The invitation for us is to press violently into it. If you want to find purpose, you first have to find God. Without God, there is no purpose.
I could type 400 pages on what I got from this convention. But, in a nut shell, I realized that as a worship leader I am the middle man for ministering to others the word of God. We aren't up there to sing and perform and worry about what others think about "OUR" performance. Nope, its not about us. Not about if we hit the right notes and played the right keys. Its to mean the hymnals and lyrics we sing and fill the place with His glory! Its about God!
I saw what it was like to worship God like no one else is around. Like only He and I are present.
Bob Sorge says, We will be completely uninhibited in our worship when we get to heaven—nothing will hold us back! So why should we not be that way down here, now? Uninhibited worship does not take any specific outward form, but it will allow us to be as completely transparent before the Lord as we will be in heaven.
Who's Bob Sorge? Well, I thought he was a Sound Tech. Because as people where filling into the nightly worhsip meeting he was on stage saying, "Testing one two" - over and over. It got to be comical because this went on for over 15 min. Then he left the stage and Shane and Shane(the Christian artist that performed that night- AWESOME) sang and then they introduced a Pastor named Bob Sorge that has many other names. Like Pastor, Author, Worship Minister, Song writer....And this guy gets up on stage. Yep the Sound Tech.
Long story short-15 years ago he had something (Cancer I think) removed from his larynx and the Dr. Botched his vocal cord and he now talks in a low whisper and it is painful for him to talk long periods of time. Pressing his lips to the mic and speaking in a low whisper talked louder to me than I have ever heard!
That man gave a testimony that brought everyone in there to there knees in tears. It was so powerful I could only weep. I just can't explain the impact he had on people and the way the Holy Spirit filled that room of over 2,000 people that night.
Like I said I could go on for days...we had several GREAT speakers. We Sang in the Mass Choir one night for Tommy Walker and Friday night for Martha Munizzi The other pict.is us on stage, during a sound check, looking out at the room that would be filled with thousands of people. The woman in the long hair is Martha, a winner of Soul Train award, Dove's woman award, Christan female of the year, Blahh blahh...she is amazing. The other women (the black lady facing us) is our Choir Director Valerie. She was amazing.
I have so much more to talk about but I will end for now with these words of wisdom either quoted by our speakers or psalms.
Worship is the key to experiencing His presence, to knowing the indescribable joy of our salvation, and to reflecting His glory. Isaiah 56:7

he Creator of the Universe, the One who designed us in the first place, has planned something far greater for those who seek Him with all their hearts. He tells us that only in His presence is true happiness; only in His presence is complete fulfillment; and only in His presence is fullness of joy. (And, we don't have to wait until we get to heaven in order to taste this.) By learning to worship Him in the Spirit - not just on Sundays in church, but privately at home - every day, we will be able to experience the fulfillment and the joy that the world and everyone in it is so desperately searching for, but very few seem to have found.
Truly, private worship is the key to joy and happiness!

I love my family!

I sure am going to miss these sweeties! I leave Sunday for a week and I am excited but, I will miss my family. I have posted my worship minister's blog to keep up with what we are doing during this next week. He will be posting pictures and things on it to keep up with what we are doing if anyone wants to check it out. http://me-log.blogspot.com/

So, blog buddies-have a great 4th of July and I love you all.

No matter what happens each day the sun still sets

Its been a while since I've blogged and I have a lot to blog about.
First I just want to brag Little on my Kids!
Payton is off to Europe where she will be going with her Meme (her dad's mom) to Spain and then to London. She will be gone for 2-1/2 weeks and I am going to miss her so much. But, its such a wonderful experience for her. She went a couple years ago to Ireland with Meme as well. Very lucky Girl. She is my angel. I really see her making a difference in this world. She has the heart of gold and very open and accepting of others. She just amazes me everyday.
Rylie is becoming such a little man. He is out of Day care this summer and he and Daddy are spending some quality time together. He will start the Mothers Day Out program at our church this fall. The only thing is its only three days a week and Thur. and Fri. I will have to find someone to keep him. So, I am praying it all works out. He has been so loving and sweet lately.
Zack, I haven't spent a lot of time with him lately. During the summer he pretty much lives out at his Dad's parents house. There is so much for him to do out there that he stays to busy for his ole mom. We played in the final baseball game last night to see who would get first place in the league. WOW what a game. We were down 5 to 1 and came back to tie them 6 to 6. We had to play a extra ending in overtime and we had used our two pictures so, Ryan put Zack on the mound(he's been working with him on pitching) and boy was I nervous! He strikes the first two players out and grounded a ball and threw the other one out at 1st. 3 Up 3 Down!
Then it was our turn to bat and we had bases loaded with 2 outs. Guess who's up to bat?? ZACK - so what does he do? He knocks the fire out of it and hits a grand slam home run to win the game! Man am I a proud momma or what!

So, enough bragging-I am now getting ready to leave next weekend for my week long trip with my fellow Praise Team/Band leaders. We are going to Texas and will be experiencing wonderful things like, singing with Martha Munizzi in a Mass choir. We will be praising and learning great things to bring back for leading FBC congregation. And spiritualy growing. This is my first time and they say its a life changing experience. OH did I mention 5 of us (Adults that are big kids at heart) will be going to Six Flags with no kids!
The thing is we were sadden to learn the Man (Pastor, teacher, christian musician/song writer, author, leader of God's Kingdom) that has been with International Worship Institute for 21yrs is stepping down as the Lead minister due to some immoral transgressions in his life. Talk about disappointing! We have even had small group classes on one of his teachings and have heard him preach the word of the Lord.
The Bible talks about Great Kings like King David that were followers of Christ and how power and wealth (AND SATAN)turned him against God's ways. But, he eventually found his way back to God and stayed true to Him until his death.
So, after much praying and thought. A good friend of mind hit the nail right on the head when she said "We should not worship people only GOD!" Maybe this is a sign to remember, there is no other God than God Himself! We are human and we fail, fall and sin. That is why Jesus died for us.
So, I pray for LaMar Boschman and his family through this time in his life. I pray that God uses him in a way to teach us things and bring him closer to God.

Schools out for the summer

Man, has this year flown by or what. The kids are getting out of school and ready for summer break. Kids these days are not much different than the kids we used to be back in the day. But, things that these kids experience so much younger than we did are so scary. They are having sex earlier. They are doing drugs and drinking way earlier. Shooting up people at school. I don't know what this world is coming to.
Here in our little town of Hooterville we've had a scare from a boy we all know to be a very good kid. Has wonderful family and is very athletic and popular. Seems to be the All American boy. Well it seems these kids are taking a over the counter cough and cold medicine in LARGE quantities for a high thats been compared to PCP. They get this "Triple C" from the shelves at wal-mart and ingest anywhere from 5 to 30 pills at a time. Because it is a legal drug they think it won't be a big deal. Well, Ellis Jr. found out different when Monday morning, after he and some other boys had a night of popping pills, his dad goes into his room and finds him unresponsive and breathing very shallow. You see this drug he's been taking for the past couple of weeks pretty regularly has the ingredient Tylenol in it. You may know the prolonged use or extensive use of acetaminophen will damage your liver and kidneys. Thats what was happening to him his liver and kidneys were shutting down and also had some damage to his heart. He had also taken hydrocoedone and because his liver wasn't filtering like it should it had put him in a sleep his body couldn't wake him up. If he'd laid there any longer he wouldn't be here today. The other boys knew something wasn't right with him that night but, was scared to say anything because they had taken some too and was afraid of getting in trouble. He as taken to Childrens Hosp. but on dialyses and a breathing machine. After 3 days of not knowing if he'd even make it, I am so happy to say he is off all breathing and medical machines and is in a private room.
We have learned more than half the football and basketball boys were involved in the same thing and even getting prescription drugs such as Oxycontin, zanix, and what ever else they can get there hands on.
The community is coming together to keep this from happening to there child. We all met last night and discussed what us parents need to do to be aware that this could happen to ANYONES child. And that it IS Happening.
I'm scared of what there is to come of this world and these children. There are so many peer pressures and things going on that we have no clue about. These kids are dealing with things that I never would have imagined.
This makes me want to keep my kids locked under my house and I know you cant do that. So, I just pray that God guides these kids to make better decisions and that these kids put God in there lives more.
I really don't know what else to say...

Schools out for the summer

God is Good!

I want to just share what putting God in your life can do for you. It has totally changed my life. Of course I always loved God and prayed (mainly when "I" need something) but, it wasnt till last summer that I starting living and learning the "Word" of God and man, has my life changed.
I want to list a few things that has happen since this day of MY Revelation.


1. Starting using what I love (God and Singing)and leading worship through music!
2. Meeting new people that I truly Cherish and love. These relationships have brought new meaning to my life. (you know who you are-one reads my blogs:) )
3. Got My best friend a job here at Tar-n-Tube and get to see her everyday.
4. Gotten my kids into church and they love it. Get to do lots of neet things too.
5. Sister got a promotion at work.
6. Ryan got the Clarksville Girls basketball job so he can be home more and this will help in so many ways. Especially with our relationship-which has gotten stronger the passed year.
7. Zack and Payton have both been successful in school with their grades and activities. (Payton has become the little actress and she is going to do some modeling through a agency in Fayettville (out of 60 girls to audition she was in the top 15)
8. Zack has exceeded in his abilities to play sports (he's been my little allstar!)
9. Rylie has grown so much and become such a sweet little boy (he can still be a pill)But, he is such a joy.
10. Payton gets to go to Spain this summer!
11. My mother in law had cancer removed from her leg and they got it all!
12. I'm getting to go to International Worship Institute with my praise team worship leaders this summer (we are going to Six Flags too! whoohoo)
13. Made a decision to spend more time with my family and we've been having lots of fun doing that!
14. Sang a song at Church that meant a lot to me and blessed some to tears. So they say??
15. Lost 15 lbs and have become health contention and feel great!
16. Prayed for lots of people and have had great results. (still praying for some)
17. Been given more responsibilities at work and I can truly say - I love my job.
18. I feel something is going to inspire me that I may be able to minister to-just a great feeling????
19. I have help some people in my community that have needs through my small groups and just wanting to give instead of receiving.
20. Changed my out look on life which transformed me from an negative, hurt, angry person to a person full of love and laughter.

These are just "some" of the things I have experienced this year. The best thing I've done is become closer to God. Without Him non of these things would have happened or I wouldn't feel the love and peace in my heart that I do today.

GOD IS GOOD!
Have a wonderful Memoral Weekeand remember our soliders!

Ephesians

I have been reading The book of Ruth and Ephesians and I have been reminded of how some things in my life have such room for improvement. Of course we all have some room and we wouldn't be human if we didn't. But, to read about how Christians not only need to talk the talk but, walk the walk. We have to sharpen one another like you sharpen blades of an ax. By not only living in a way that people will be touched and blessed but,to do so in a way thats appeasing to others. Wouldn't it be nice to have someone say, Man, she is a living like I want to live. No, I'm not talking about living with material things. But in spirit-I'm telling you its contagious. I am not talking about being so successful or wealthy and people want what you have. I'm talking about having wealth and riches in your spirit. The way you love and live for Christ. Where people want to be around you for your positive and enriching way of living life.
We so many times go to church, pray and worship. Just to walk out the door and do what "we" want to do. Not what God wants us to. We want to be in control of our own lives! We want to make our decisions based on what is in it for us. But, we aren't in charge of our lives. And the sooner we learn this the better life will be. Most non believers will say being around a person that calls themselves Christians to find out they are hypocritical and go to church once a week but, live in sin and not by their own words has turned them away from God.
That's why we have to let God be in charge and live like he would want us to. Not how "we" think we should live. Some people will say, "I've done just fine on my own." But, have they? I can tell you I didn't do to good being the one in charge of my life. I was defiantly one of these people I'm talking about at one time. I thought I could make my own decisions in life and didn't need anyone telling me what to do-Well, I know now that wasn't the case! I have proof of that. I didn't know what I was doing and it showed in lots of my decision making and mistakes I call "learning experiences"
Ephesians tell you talk nice to others and infront of others. Don't use profanity and ugly talk. The people that are mean to you, don't like you and are mad at the world. Be extra nice to them. Don't give up on the stubborn friends that keep making bad decision. Love them and guide them. Don't talk about others. We all have faults.
You can lead by actions not your words. You don't have to preach-show people how to treat others and live God filled lives.
These are hard things to do sometimes and I am guilty of them myself. But to live like this, I KNOW will make life easier for me! Cause thats what we have to do if we are truly Christians.
So blog buddies I love you all and have a blessed day.
Do something out of your comfort zone today like saying something nice, e-mailing, calling, give an appology, giving a smile or just a pat on the back. It may be a person that has hurt you in some way or is just a misserable and unhappy.

Prayers

I'm asking for prayers. As you know my husband has been driving back and forth for 2 years to Mountainburg to work. It is an hours drive and he has sacrificed this so I can work here and the kids can go to school where they have grown up and my mommy and daddy are her as well. He's really enjoyed his job and the kids love him. But, its so hard on us for him to have this commute and especially during ball season. I am basically a single mom with the three kids. Its around the Holidays (Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years) and its a hard time for me emotionally as well.
So, we have been praying a lot lately to help find something closer to home. I didn't get to go but to a couple of his games last year, because my kids play here on those same nights. So, to be able to support him and have him home would be great.
There are a couple of jobs around this area that will be coming open (we think) one is the Clarksville Jr high, 7th grade girls head coach with asst. Sr. high. He applied and interviewed for this last year and was told he was the front runner for the job and a woman applied at the last minute and they gave it to her-they like women coaching girls- So, tomorrow he has a interview for this job again.
There are mixed emotions because they have had 5 coaches quit after each year. Schools can be political. Also, he would have to change his demeanor a bit, because these are hormonal girls-not BOYS like is used to.
But, the biggest thing is a young boy that played ball and graduated with honors at Clarksville, has applied and is the Asst. Principles son in law and related to a lot of the faculty through this marriage has an interview as well. He is very liked and a very good kid. Thats just it though, he has no experience. But, that didn't stop them from hiring the Dean of Students son for Sr high boys right out of school.
Anyway, I know what is meant to be is meant to be. I know that God puts us where he wants us. I also know he is the giver of wonderful things too. It would be wonderful if he would keep us in his favor and guide us through this time in our life to bring our family closer together. Even if it isn't with this particular job-just put us in a situation that we can be together next year.
So, please pray for us!
Love you all

Sing a little song for me

Okay, I heard this song by Martina McBride call "Anyway" its a song they play on both christian stations and country of course. When I heard it for the first time it brought me to tears because of what the lyrics say and the song is just beautiful. If you haven't heard it you need to. I will put a link on here to go to so you can watch the video and hear the song. Sooooo.....I just knew I had to sing this one at church. I started talking to Spring and Mark (my worship leaders for our praise team) and they never really said one way or the other if we could sing it. I think because they really pick the songs that go with that service and really its just a inspirational song that doesn't pertain to what is being preached by Darrell. So, I just didn't say anything else but, still felt the need to share this with others. Well, the persistent little thing I am-I thought what a great song to go along with the slide show they will present at church for the high school graduates. So, once again I mentioned it again. This time to Kevin the youth pastor. He liked the idea and told Mark about it. I'm sure Mark said to himself-OKAY JUST SO SHE WILL LEAVE ME ALONE! ha but, guess what?? I'm singing it this Sunday with the slide show.
I told Mark that if it wasn't for the best interest of the congregation that I will not be offended at all. Besides this is not about ME its about God. And truly thats what I want it to be about. If I can touch at least ONE person through this song. That is what my purpose is all about. To bring one person closer to the Lord is what I am passionate about. SO I AM NERVOUS! I finally got what I wanted and now I just pray that God is with me this day and lets me sing this the way I do when Its just He and I.
So, pray for me and that one person I would love to touch!
and pray for the Sr's about to be thrown out there in the big bad world. That they keep God in their hearts in everything they do.

http://music.aol.com/video/anyway/martina-mcbride/1863728

Mothers Day

My mom is the best! She has taught me the most amazing things in my life. Things that I've seen her set by example. Like how to be compassionate, loving, neutering and open minded. My mom has the hear the size of Texas. I've never seen anyone like her. She can put your to ease and feel warm inside just by being around her. She was defiantly put on this earth to be a mom! God has given her some hard roads to travel in her life and she has taken each challenge and tuned it into things that have only made her stronger and more understanding of others. She is so easy to talk to and so brilliant. I'm proud to call her my mother and hope that I can fill her shoes as a mother to my own kids. She is a small petite woman with a huge love for her kids and grand kids.
So, thank you mom for being my mom and my best friend! I love you with all my heart and look forward to many more years together. When God created angels he had you in mind.
To all the other mothers out there that read by blog (all two of you-ha) have a wonderful mothers day and GOD BLESS YOU!

Family,Fun,Fellowship and FOOD

As I posted a few days back I have made a commitment to value the relationships in my life a lot more. This weekend the girls of our family had a "girls day out". We all enjoyed each others company very much. We had a few of the girls missing. My Cousins Tiffany, Lauren, Ashley and Kennedy. So, the next time we hope they get to join us. They were in our thoughts. We had a blast. We ate, shopped, laughed, talked, listen to music. It was my favorite "F" words... great Family and Fellowship and Food and Fun!
These pictures were taken at the Promenade, a outside mall in Rogers. It was a beautiful sunny, windy day. They had a nice band playing on the grass. The little ones danced and we all loved watching their wonderful youth and innocence. Course we all held hands in one big circle and danced with them and they thought that was so fun. Payton let them stick their hands in the water fountain. Jen and Linz thought that was funny!hee They even ran ammuck in Dillards while us girls shoe shopped and I don't know if the sales clerk thought that was funny-but, the babies did! My mom must have been in a shop when we took these-cause she was there but, I just noticed not in these pictures. Hmmmmmmm-sorry mom.

All in all it was a great weekend and I love my family so much. We used to be soooo close and see each other every day or weekend when us girls were young. We are still close, just don't get to spend as much time together. We all have our own little families and live in different places now and its hard to get together as much as we would like. But, like I said my new way of thinking is to MAKE time. And what a great time I had doing that this weekend!

YUMMY YUMMY SWEETS

I really don't have much to say today. I know that's unusual-huh?
Lets see.... I am fasting from Candy and sweets for a week. It seems the older I get the more I crave sweets. I used to really never eat sweets unless it was around that time of the month. (Which is right now!) that makes it harder!! But,I just crave chocolate all the time.
So, I decided I would take something that I know would be a challenge to do with out and fast.

I asked my kids what they would give up for a week, month, whatever and they told me what would be hard for them to give up. They wanted to know why I was doing this. I said to show my love for God. I told them that Jesus fasted for 40 days with NO FOOD or water to show his commitment to his Father. Payton said there is no way a human can do that. I said Payton, Jesus may have been in human form when he first came here but, HE WAS JESUS! He had the greatest of all powers- he healed people-He even brought people back from the dead. Sure he felt what humans feel, but he had God on his side.

I must have him by me too because, to really test me I went to my small group last night and on the table was the biggest jar of candy. They were all munching away. I didn't have one peace-Spring gave me some gum though.

Just think of what Jesus gave up for us? His life!

Could you give something up to prove your love and dedication? My friend Kathy gave up her blogging for 2 weeks. I think it killed me more than it did her!Ha Because I love reading her blogs. They are always so inspirational. But she did it.

Well blogbuddies-have a great day and eat a big ole peace of yummy sweet chocolate or candy for me!

BaseBall season has started

Well this is the most busiest time of year for us because we start baseball with Zack. He will go through the regular season then we Ryan always coaches the AllStar team and we won state last year in Maumelle and then went to regionals close to Jonesboro. So lots of traveling. I love to watch him though. He is such an athletic little thing its always fun to watch him compete in any sport he plays.
He stays pretty active. I just want to brag a little, so...here I go! I will be going with him on a rafting trip for his boyscouts May 12th. Which will be so fun and great bonding time for us. He will be moving up to a higher level in boyscouts. He will be performing with the S.H.O.U.T. choir at church on mothers day. I love to hear him sing! (Even though he is shy and really doesnt want to do it because he's not one that like that kind of attention) He has been chosen for the advanced relay team at school. He was the third fastest runner in the whole 4th grade. He is on the honor roll. I'm just so proud of him. I am proud of all my kids!
Payton has the lead part in her school play in drama. She made the competition cheer squad for next year. She will be in high school next year-man thats crazy. She's really a beautiful young lady. She has been realy big into her youth group at church, called the Upper Room. They are doing a fun weekend retreat this weekend. On Sat. night they will go to see a christian concert called Kingdom Come in Little Rock.
Now Rylie-I love the little poot. But, he is going through some rough times lately with his behavior at school. We were called in for confrence about his loud, ruff houseing, and not listening. He is a boy thats in a class of 16 with half Developly mental delayed kids. (Forrester Davis specailizes in DDS kids) SO, he isn't getting as much attention and he and three other boys are ripping and romping during class time. But, I am still proud of him too. He's just my challengeing child that has WAY to much energy.
Okay enough blogging today. I just needed to brag a little and let it be known how wonderful and blessed I am with such great kiddos!

Beautiful days ahead

Well the weather is supposed to be really pretty this weekend. Sat. is supposed to be in the 80's and full of sun shine. So, this will be a great time to get together with the ones you love and do something fun outside. I plan on taking the kids on the nature trail here in Hooterville. I don't think Ryan's ever been on it. But, we take for granted the beauty God created for us here. Especially right under our nose. We really live in a beautiful place here in the Ozark Mountains and Arkansas in general.

I think about the things that happen, like the Unv. of Virgina shootings and I wonder if the guy that was so disturbed and shot these innocent people ever just looked around him and realized what God had given him? Its sad if he didn't ever experience that. I would say he was in a dark place and never got to see that light!

Life is so short and we all are guilty of not taking time out to enjoy little things in life like just to sit outside and watch nature. Or to play outside with your kids and friends. God is good to us. Even thought there are a few people that never figure that out her in this life time.

Have you ever taken a walk with God? I know your saying wow Steph are you turning into a freak of nature and Holy weirdo? NOPE. I have a friend that goes to college here and is in our Praise band and small groups that really does take walks with God. He says its a peaceful time to reflect on things going on in our life and who else to share you most precious time with than God himself. At first I though - wow this guy is really in deep with the whole religion stuff. But, as I journey on in this life I realize how wonderful it is that I have the strenght, sight, smell and taste of life's little walks. And that I dont take for granted the reason I can take those walks are because of our Father.

So, anyway,,,,, I will incorporate time with my family and God this beautiful weekend and give thanks to what I am blessed with in my time here on earth. I love life-even though it can be hard sometimes and things don't always go as smoothly as I would like. I remind myself when these things happen that I am where God wants me.

So, I hope you all have a great weekend and if you can't take a walk with God at least know that wether do or not he is always there by your side waiting for his time with you. He always makes time for you! Will you for him?

16 IMPORTANT THINGS WE ALL NEED TO KNOW:

1. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

2. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship- and find out you still care for that person.

3. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

4. When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but oftentimes we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

5. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

6. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

7. There are things you'd love to hear that you could never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart.

8. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

9. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

10. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

11. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do... but do them all in His name.

12. Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person, too.

13. The beginning of love is to let those we love be just
themselves, and not twist them with our own image - otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

14. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

15. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

16. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

Family is Important!

Since the new company bought us out here at Greenville Tube we have had LOTS of change. Change is good and I am all for new things. I didn't know how much it would add to my responsibilities and I am a little overwhelmed. Thats why I haven't blogged in a while. I don't have as much time to play on the net. I do enjoy my new jobs though and I feel like I am really contributing to our company-so thats good.

This weekend Ryan and I went to Hot Springs with my family. Its was fun. The guys went to the races-it was Derby weekend and the last race of the year. 60,000 people there! So, mom, Lins and I went shopping. We had Addison with us too. But, I was kid less. It was great to just worry about ME! We had a really nice time. Lots of bonding and eating. I miss my time with family. Seems like I get so busy I don't take time to share with the people that mean the most to me. Something I have been praying about to redirect my time and spend quality time with the ones I love.


So, a lot of times we say I should do this or that and don't....I am making a promise to myself that I will reach out to these most important people in my life and let them know they are loved. I will start today by calling my Aunt Kay in Louisville KY to say hi and I love her. She lost her son last year and I told her I would keep in touch better and I have not been true to my word. So, I will, with Gods will, be a better Niece, cousin, sister, Aunt, daughter, wife, friend and mother today!

Friends are important too. My girlfriends at church are starting a Girl Friend Group. It consists of our mentoring mother, Kathy and four of her little mentees. Kathy is a wonderful lady that just retired from being in the educational world and has two grown kids that live out of town and state. She's a devote christian. Years ago she devoted her life to Christ. Since her retirement she has more time to really be a follower and a leader. With her wonderful heart and spirit she has taken 4 of us women that are all the same age under her wing. We all have in common that we are mothers, wives and Gods children. We all lead busy lives with trying to balance marriage, kids, work, self and most importantly church and God. So, being there once herself, Mighty Mentor Mrs. Kathy has a lot of good advice and direction and most importantly prayers for us all. So, we are going to start meeting at church on Wed. nights in place of our small group, that we have finished after 14 weeks of great sturr, to share the word of the Lord and each others lives. So, I am so excited to be a part of this. We will all be going to the International worship Institute this summer too. From what I hear this week will change someone forever, its that wonderful. I am just so thankful to have friends like this and family.

I just wish I could see my family more often. I have a wonderful Aunt Terry that lives in Pine Bluff and her daughter Tiff. I have a Aunt in Kentucy and a Aunt that lives right here that I don't get to spend much time with because they live away or we are all so busy with our lives. I have great cousins to these wonderful women that I would love to see more of too. Even though I don't spend much time with them I think of them so often and love them so much.

I hope you all know that I am here for you anytime you need me!

Some of us at Church have been discussing that it would be wonderful to touch a non-believer in a way that would change his/her life forever. To help them find God and become one with the Holy Spirit. We have a wonderful worship servece planned on Easter. With the Drama, Choir, Praise team, Crosswalk, Easter Egg hunt-just to name a few. Just a wonderful celebration for Jesus. It is supposed to bring tears to your eyes-I'm sure I will be one big blubbering mess! We even hope that one of the CEO church goers (Christams, Easter Only)will be touched this Easter. If only one person could be saved it would be awesome. So, I ran across this article and want to share it with you and wish you all a Happy Easter!

What is the meaning of Easter?
While the focus was once on Easter Sunday, now it is on the Easter Bunny. But Easter Sunday is much more than a day of colorful plastic eggs and chocolate bunnies; it is in fact a day that left the world forever changed.

It had been three days since Jesus had received the death penalty by popular vote. His friends and followers were devastated, as they had come to believe that He was not just an ordinary man, but the Son of God. He had performed miracles, healed every disease, and even brought a man back from the dead.

On that third day—the day we now celebrate as Easter Sunday—His friends went to His grave, but instead of finding His body, they found an open tomb with no body in it. In fact, what they saw was an angel who told them, “Don’t be afraid! I know you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He isn’t here! He has been raised from the dead, just as He said it would happen” (Matthew 28:5, 6).

Jesus rose from the dead on Easter Sunday; now He offers to you the gift of eternal life and forgiveness of sins. This is the true story of Easter, and this salvation is for you. Here are 4 principles that tell how you can receive the gift of God for your life.
1. God Loves You!

The Bible says, "God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life"

The problem is that

2. All of us have done, said or thought things that are wrong. This is called sin, and our sins have separated us from God.

The Bible says “All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” God is perfect and holy, and our sins separate us from God forever. The Bible says “The wages of sin is death.”

The good news is that, about 2,000 years ago,

3. God sent His only Son Jesus Christ to die for our sins.

Jesus is the Son of God. He lived a sinless life and then died on the cross to pay the penalty for our sins. “God demonstrates His own love for us in that while we were yet sinners Christ died for us.”

Jesus rose from the dead and now He lives in heaven with God His Father. He offers us the gift of eternal life -- of living forever with Him in heaven if we accept Him as our Lord and Savior. Jesus said "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except by Me."

God reaches out in love to you and wants you to be His child. "As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe on His name." You can choose to ask Jesus Christ to forgive your sins and come in to your life as your Lord and Savior.

4. If you want to accept Christ, you can ask Him to be your Savior and Lord by praying a prayer like this:

"Lord Jesus, I believe you are the Son of God. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. Please forgive my sins and give me the gift of eternal life. I ask you in to my life and heart to be my Lord and Savior. I want to serve you always."

Did you pray this prayer?

LOOKING FORWARD TO THE WEEKEND!

My friend Kathy had in her blog a article about how women should take some time for theirselves to pamper themselves. They should find time to eat healthy, exercise and take care of their Temple. Because we are our own Temple of worship for the Holy Spirit. We should take time out of our busy lives to be with God and give our whole self to him each day. Its hard to do all this when you are a woman of the 21st century and have full time jobs, kids, husbands, ballgames and activities your kids are involved in. When you volunteer for Church and school things. Well, you get the point. It's just hard to stop and reflect on the fact that us women are important too. We have to have "us" time whether its to soul search, take care of ourselves or to praise God.
So, this weekend a group of girls and I are going to a secluded cabin in the woods (Yes, it has electricity, showers, Kitchen the works) and we are going to have fellowship with each other, food, nature and did I say food? Ha We all bring something we like to cook and let me tell you some of these girls can put Martha Stewart to shame. We will go on a nature hike-the weather permitting. We will play games, laugh, talk and EAT! There is this big huge deck on the back of the cabin that is the length of the whole cabin that we all sit out on and drink coffee and visit. At night we might have a glass of wine and then we all go in and pile in the beds and cotts and couches and tell stories and act like we are little girls again. Its Great and I can't wait!
So if you haven't had your "me" time in a while - take a long bath, read a book, take a walk, or just call up a girl friend and go to a movie or to eat. WE DESERVE IT!

HAPPY B-DAY TO MY BABY!

Well my baby boy is turning 4 years old tomorrow the 24th. Seems like just yesterday I was giving birth and cuddling a little bundle of joy. Now he is Mr independent. He is spiderman, superman, big boy and Best friends to Buddy our golden retriever. He is hyper, loud and all boy. He is sweet, mean, mischievous and DID I SAY LOUD!
He wants a spider man bike and superman cake. So, thats what he is getting.
He has been my child of challenges. I tell everyone if I would have had him first I would have REALLY thought about having other kids!ha He will be a very determined and strong willed adult. Those qualities are going to be great for him when he reached puberty. But, now they are very...shall I say difficult! But, I wouldn't change him for a minute. He is, like my other kids, the love of my life.
In the bible it tells how Abraham was told by the Lord to sacrifice his oldest son for God. Abraham being the loyal servant he was took a few of his men and his son to the Forrest and prepared for this event. Of course Abraham and the Lord were the only ones to know of this task. I always wonder what was going on in Abraham's mind through this. Once they arrived in the Forrest he told the men to stay there and worship and pray. He and Isaac went into the deep wood and he told Isaac to prepare wood and a fire for the burnt offering. Isaac asked were is the Lamb to offer? Not knowing what was about to really happen. Abraham said go and the Lord will take care of us. So he prepared to KILL his son and God said STOP! You obeyed me and I will now reward you for the rest of your days. And he did! abundantly.
Now could you imagine having to make this decision? Because we would take our own lives for our kiddos.
Just thought I would share that story - It just amazes me that God did that for us with his only son! Thats how much he loves us.

Powerful, through the mouth of a child

THIS IS FABULOUS!!!

It was written by an 8-year-old named Danny Dutton, who lives in Chula Vista , CA . He wrote it for his third grade homework assignment, to "explain God." I wonder if any of us could have done as well? .... and he had such an assignment, in California , and someone published it, I guess miracles do happen ! ...

EXPLANATION OF GOD:
"One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grownups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way he doesn't have to take up his valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers." "God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times beside bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because he hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in his ears, unless he has thought of a way to turn it off."

"God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting his time by going over your mom and dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have."

"Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista . At least there aren't any who come to our church."

"Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work, like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want to learn about God. They finally got tired of him preaching to them and they crucified him But he was good and kind, like his father, and he told his father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said O.K."

Nothing I could have blogged about today would have been any better than this-

Busy, Busy

Time has change thanks to a little thing they call daylight savings. I swear I just get used to falling back then we have to go spring forward. So, we've been sprung and having more daylight is great. But, I've noticed the more light we have during the day the more I do. Like I wasn't doing enough already. For example yesterday I got up went to work, picked up the Zack and Rylie after school, went to moms they fished a little while I laid in the tanning bed, gotta fit some "ME" time in somewhere (besides, celutlite looks much better tan). Went to pick up Payton from Cheerleading practice for Sr. High try-outs. Went by the house dropped Payton off, Zack changed into shorts, took him to All Star Basketball practice, sat there for an hour and a half with my 4 year old. Went home threw together sandwiches for supper. Then I did some painting on my bathroom cabinets I am working on. Spent a little quality time with my hubby looked at the clock and it was 9:30 - WOW, so I read the bible and went to bed. Oh and today I have even more than that to do because its church night. God give me strength :) So, rememebering that God rested on the 7th day of creation, I need to do the same before I burn out I know.
You know how when your child is going through stressful stuff you stress with them? Well, here we are again going through this darn cheerleading stuff again! Man, I'm glad I played sports when I was young and didn't put my momma through this! Payton will be practicing all week and trying out Friday. There are 12 spots open with 9 returning SR. High girls trying out and about 10 Jr. High cheerleaders that Payton cheered with this year. And others that have been working their tails off for this years competition. Its going to be a tuff tryout! I watched the dance and its a doozy. Course some of the "cheer moms" (those moms crack me up-ya know the ones that tyr to make their daughters perfect) were videoing the dance so their kids could watch it and practice. It is a good Idea, but I just don't think like that. Payton I'm sure wished I did sometimes. Like uhhhh.... then.
So, Payton and I have been talking and I have been trying to assure her that God has already got a plan for her if she makes it or not its his will. She understands this and is aware that these are the little things in life, but at the same time this is a BIG thing for these her too. I understand that, I just want her to realize there is life after being a high school cheerleader that God has planned big things for her. They are at that age where its all about the here and now. I rememeber being her age and never thinking beyond high school-It was like whatever was going on at that time was it-ya know?
So, help me pray for Payton to keep foucsed on whats really important here, that she is of able mind and body to even tryout. To realize that what she already has is a blessing and thats people that love her and support her. She has continuous education, nutrition, health, wonerful friends and family and most importan, God. Let what is ment to happen, happen and put it in God's hands. Of course its hard to think of all of this when you are 15 years old and think that THIS is important. Because to her it is. Its just important to me that she grows with every step in her life good or bad. God give and he takes away. We don't like when God takes away very much but, how will we grow and learn if he only gives?

This picture was taken about a year and a half ago. How time flies. These kids are the light of my life. Everyday they amaze me. I am so proud of them all and thank God everyday for giving them to me. Now don't get me wrond some days I want to just strangle them for something or other and I'm sure they'd like to slap me around too. But, to have Rylie say, "Mom, I love you." or Payton tell me I am a good mom and she appreciates me or to hear Zack say, "mom, I want to get closer to God like you have, how do I do that?" just makes me melt.
Ya know I wish I would have shared more about God with these kids when they were a lot younger. Yes, we went to church and went through the motions. Of course the Presbytarin church we went to didn't have much youth and the services were really on an adult level that was hard for me to keep focused on and I know Payton and Zack found it hard to comprehend. (Which of course is no exuse) but, I didn't have God in our lives like we do now. So, the question Zack asked me how do I know GOd more has been weighing on his mind. He started crying the other day because he's afraid he wont go to heaven because he is having a hard time connecting with God sense he can't see him. So, I felt like a total idiot for not showing him the way of worship before now. So, if anyone knows of a Bible for his age, 10 years old, please let me know. Going to church and being involved with youth group and shout choir with Mrs. Rogers and Mrs. Becky Bradley is a great way to start. They are wonderful spiritual people that do great jobs with youth.
Well, I hope everyone had a great weekend. We have All star basket ball games for Zack all day Sat. and my sister is coming in! I'm excited cause I get to baby squat my little neice on Sat. night-whew hoo

MY Bestest Bud

Well this week has been a great one so far. My Bestest friend in the whole wild world is now working here at the Tar-n-Tube with me! I've been training her so we have been joined at the hip. The new offices are not quite done yet so we are bunking up here in my office for now. Its funny cause we have to share a computer until hers comes in and we wheel our little chairs around each other taking turns. Whats real funny is Kim feel out of hers yesterday. If you know Kimberly this is not surprising she is full of grace like that.ha
when she and I get together we are like we were in 5th grade, like big old kids. Dad (our boss) knows this, I mean we have been BF for over 25 years, so we have to act professional at work.
Which the small group at church I go to just went over this subject (no not the working with your BF part-ha) but to do your best at EVERYTHING you do. Work being one of those things. After working here for 14 yrs things can get routine and its easy to just go through the motions. Its easy to take things for granted with ole pop being my boss. Its easy to forget that I've got a great job and could be working plucking chickens at Tyson or something(which no offense to those who do-I admire them for doing whatever it takes to make a honest living) So, I am going to do my best and what a bonus to have My BF working along side me everyday. God is good and he put her in my life for a reason (Believe me she has been my rock), but he is really great to have met her needs as well-a new job with great pay and benefits and to have met mine- Making a reason to want to come to work even greater!

The "Compass"

Stephanie Marshall...In her own words.
Just a little background, my husband Ryan and I have three kids Payton, 15yr, Zack 10, and Rylie 4 years old.

I have always beleived in God. I just lost my way for a while. It was during this time that I disconnected form Him as I went through a lot of years of personal conflicts. On the outside I seemed to be alright, while on the inside I was angry, hurt, lost and confused. I became a bitter person and this not only affected me, but also my children and family. I felt like a failure, and become this person I didn't know or like. I was confused and searching for answers. I was at my wits end! It was then that my best friend of 27 years lost her 9 mo. old dauther. There I was, with this defeated attitude. I have a wonderful life and family and was ashamed of how I had taken it all for granted.

So, I started praying and reading the bible everyday. Some dear friends of ours Kyle and Donna Helms invited us to FBC and a small group they were going to for 40 days of community. Ryan and I had talked about getting our family back into church. In August of 2006 we started attending FBC and this small group. The people we met were wonderful! We couldn't get enough. I was so excited about what God was doing in my life and I finally felt at peace. From the moment I walked into FBC, my life was changed. I heard the praise band worship and I felt a connection to God in a way I'd never felt before. I knew I had to be a part of this!

That was 6 months ago, since then I have been baptized by our new and wonderful Pastor Darrell Bridges. I now worship God everyday. I am continuously educating myself with the Lord's Words. As a memeber of FBC I am active in small groups, the praise team, choir and the church community as a whole. I have peace in my life that I've never felt before. Besides being a mother, daughter, sister, wife and Friend, I NOW know my purpose in life. I wished I would have discovered this years ago, but I know I had to go through what I have, to be where I am. I am truly blessed! God is working in my life and I am excited to see what he has planned for me and my family. "In the world you will have tribulations: but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world"-Joh 16:33.

I know that on the path of life there will be many right and wrong turns, stop signs, green light and road blocks. But, with God, my family and the church family at FBC, I will be okay

This was the article in the "Compass" that was mailed out for March I told you I would share. It turned out to be really nice. (except for the picture that I have no clue who took and where I was-but it wasn't very flattering!) Anyway, I just talked from my heart and tried to keep it simple. I could have gone into more detail but, that would have been way to much Info like Kathy types on her blog TMI.

ME

I don't know how to explain how I am feeling right NOW. Its kinda like how a Caterpillar might feel when it is going into the ca coon stage and hopefully I feel like the butterfly in the end. But, right now I just feel..... cacoony (new word lol)
I have had a metamorphosis of life changing events lately. Searching for who I was for a long time I found something even better. I found God. Not that he was lost-no, I was the one that was lost. I just put him back in my life at a time I really needed him. I realize he was always there just buried in a lot of hurt and confusion. So, finding him put me in a place that I've changed things in my life. This means changing my life style, attitude, and who I spend my time with. So, this has been a challenging task for me. Some of my friends and family are having a hard time with "the new me" or they are not sure what to say or how to act around me. In return I don't know how to act either because I am still the same. Its an uncomfortable feeling. So that leaves me wondering how do I make that feeling go away and just feel like me? So thats where the ca coony feeling comes in because I am in the middle of a transformation and not sure what to do.
I'm still me. I dont have to live the life style that some of my friends live to be friends with them. I dont have to act a certain way because I'm afraid they might think I've gone off the "Holly Roller" deep end. I'm still me! I dont want to have to feel guilty or uncomfortable for changing. The old saying friends come and go like the weather can be true. I see that some of my friends are in different places in their lives than I am and I'm not judgeing anyone for that. I'm not by any means perfect myself. This may change the dynamics of our friendships but it doesn't mean I don't love them any less. Just because I don't like to party and hang out some of the places they do doesn't mean I can't still have fun.
I know that spending lots of time at church lately and having to be in town on Sundays has been hard for me to see my sister and her family. She lives a couple of hours away and I miss them. Mom and dad go there almost every weekend and I feel like I'm the one that has moved!ha Thats hard for me too. But, I remind myself God sacrificed his Son for us. I realize I have to sacrafice things too.
So, I'm trying to find the balance of my new life style, friends and family. When I figure it all out then maybe I can spread my wings and come out of my ca coon like the butterfly. And my true friends will know and they are waiting for me while I metamorphisize into what God is doing in my life right now.
But, all in all - I'M STILL ME!